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Mar. 29th, 2006 @ 10:51 pm Sorry gang.
Sorry gang, not a big LJ'er anymore I've been helping a friend out with his myspace. but yea if you could help me out it would be greatly Appeciated. add him to your myspace if you have one


www.myspace.com/areyoualiveyet



thanks,

The Are we alive street team
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Oct. 5th, 2005 @ 10:20 pm From fear through the eyes of madness
Hey everyone. I haven't been on here in a long time......... yea....... Life's been pretty good i guess. it's just that people are immature pricks. I hate them all. School sux Work sucks. I dunno y everything has been so shitty. Mabey it's cause I've been comparing everything to HER. Yes there is a girl involved. I just don't know why SHE matters to me but for the last little while i've thought about HER more than ever. I dunno Mabey it's her that has made me feel this way. I don't think of this as the only reason. Mabey I'm just looking at everything wrong..... well later
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Aug. 15th, 2005 @ 10:13 pm Counting the Stars
Current Music: Counting the Stars- Brand new
Hey Everyone, What's Goin down? Really? that bad huh?........eh? Oops sorry wrong window. Any way...... I'm counting down the days till I have to Juggle School and work again. It won't be a big deal i don't think. I really want to see all my friends again. It will be cool. wqell l8r
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Jul. 25th, 2005 @ 04:40 pm WOAH!!!!!!
Current Music: Alien ant farm~ movies
Hey, it's been awhile since i did, one of these. I don't even now where to start........ I mean it's been a long time. Well my job has been taking up alot of my time. on top of that there's sleeping and and eating and did i metion sleeping. there's the acasional hanging out with friends. then the watching tv and playing Videogames. chillin on Myspace.....yea..... that seems to be all......nothing really exciting....nope....nothing............. that's all..... l8r......
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Jun. 7th, 2005 @ 12:55 am A little less 16 candles a little more (touch me)
Current Music: FOB~Where is your boy tonight (acoustic)
WEll, my first entry in a while. so I have no idea where to begin. I'll start with my job, I work at wendy's now. It's cool the people i work with are cool. On the front with girls, once again I'm more screwed than ever. I'm still in that stage where i don't open up to people. And I"m more Idiotic than ever. I'm starting to dislike myself as much as everyone else. I find myself just sitting there wondering how different things were or could be. i dunno you couls say I'm more emo than ever at least i admit it though unlike some people i know. well that's all 4 now.
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May. 12th, 2005 @ 08:13 pm Long time
Current Music: Fallout Boy-A sophmoroe slump of comeback of the year
Yea, I haven't typed one of these in a while. so what's up.......oh, that bad huh? oh well my life is going great. I don't really have anything going wrong. It kicks butt( my art teacher hate the word butt). So? I got the new FOB CD I't is awsome. IT hasn't left my CD player. It is so awsome. Gah! I'm gonna go listen to it. Later. so, wh yhavn't i been typing you ask. I see no reason to. oh well I'll ttyl if you are important.
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Apr. 30th, 2005 @ 01:00 pm Trustworthy?
Current Music: The faint sounds of nothingness
hey. I have been cosidering some things. It is very hard to trust people these days. No matter what you say, it allways turns against you. My trust in people has faded, i feel that there is no reason to trust anyone anymore. I think i should just keep my poor miserable life to myself. it just seems like the best thing for me to do. and that i don't want to betray my friends so i will not take in anymore secrets, the fact is i am VERY flawed, and i don't think i can trust people anymore. it only leads to people discovering who you aren't and making assumptions about who you really are. This sounds like paranoia, cause it is, i trust no one. sorry.
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Apr. 21st, 2005 @ 10:56 am Study hall
Current Mood: chipperPoopie!
Current Music: The noise of people talking
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Apr. 16th, 2005 @ 01:19 pm BLAH!!!
Current Music: Almost~ Bowling for soup
Hey everyone, How have things been? I've been sick, First with the stomach flu now it's a sinus infection. I'll be going back to school on monday. I'm only aloud to eat Dry Cheerios it sux butt. Oh well at least i can eat. unlike tuesday, that sucked. Well that's all for now mabey I'll post again l8r.
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Apr. 9th, 2005 @ 08:51 pm I'm Sick again :*(
Current Music: 3 doors down~ let me go
Well I"m sick again today, it happened while hanging out With Zach, remind me never to eat pudding again. No offence to your mom's pudding Zach. I was really looking forward to seeing Andifiperish w/ Steph. it would have been cool. but I threw up Old School in the BK bathroom, Sorry Chris I saw you working but was too busy tossing my cookies to say hi. But i do have good news FALLOUT BOY IS HEADING THIS WAY AGAIN!!!!!!! 05/06/05 In Rockford IL and this time it isn't a 18+ show so my friends can go, I'll try to find more info though.and about my last LJ I'm just soo confused so many things are going on at once. and this is where i insert song lyrics Today it's 3 DOORS DOWN " Let me go" :


One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me


You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me


You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows


You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

and you me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know who I am
and you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know me




Well that's all for now. Peace out!!!



Pat




p.S. Sorry Steph about not going tonight I got sick, you can even ask Zach, even though you don't know him and if you are mad at me Oh well I appologized.
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Apr. 8th, 2005 @ 11:04 pm (no subject)
Current Music: Green Day~ wake me up When September ends
I've just seem to have alot on my mind. Life has been crazy lately. I know I've been sick, but that's not why it's crazy, there's been alot going on lately. I'm under alot of strees, or at least in my head i am. I'm worrying about little things that wouldn't usually bug me. Life is confusing, but there are some things i am not confused about, like how i feel about my friends and family, i don't know why but it feels like all the people who have been my friends for the longest time are mad at me, i know I'm probably Pariniod. But i feel so left out lately it feels like something is so close i can feel it right next to me, but i don't know what it is. I've tried to be mature about everything but i just can't maitain the image I've tried for so long to keep. I've tried to be funny, and Friendly, but lately it's been hard.Well I'm out, l8r.
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Apr. 8th, 2005 @ 03:33 pm Another day wasted.
Current Music: Gym Class heros~ Cupids Chokehold
Well, today really sucked. I stayed home sick cause i was well.... sick. I think i have the stomach flu, it's not cool. I'll go to school monday though,i hope, then yesturday when i actually was at school, I felt like crap all day, but then after-school i went uptown. It was cool, but then Steph left me :( it was sad. Then Brad wouldn't pick her back up. Then i came home about 8:30, Talked to Steph, and then it was today. My life sux. Well l8r.
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Apr. 4th, 2005 @ 09:43 pm What nice weather
Current Mood: crushedI'm sorry Steph
Current Music: Fallout boy~Saturday
Hey everyone I had a fun day today, i hung out with Steph(the only one there that mattered) and Ashley, then we were alking around for a while and This little kid Was making fun of Ashley. it was great, then we walked toward my house and then we were on walkie talkies and were making fun of people, it was so great. Then we ran into my friend Mexico, and we started to head over to the school from down by DG and we sat in the grass behind the boys and girls club and we saw these real 2 ugly girls so we yelled at them and we started walking toward the street and i had to go home. That's pretty much it.


Pat








P.S. I'M SO SORRY FOR WHAT I SAID STEPH, PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
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Apr. 3rd, 2005 @ 10:29 pm What do you do?
Current Mood: crushedDid i screw up something else?
Current Music: The Click five~ I'll take my chances
What do you do when you think you like someone, but you can never tell them, you must keep it a secret until the end of time.is that really fair? Should I keep all of these feelings to myself? Or should i just let them go and tell her anyway, and I'm having another problem i can't seem to do anything right wel l8r.but it's really nothing now unless i can get a certain girl, that responded to this, To find out how i really feel.





Pat


P.S. For the last time i can type it Happy b-day Steph, I'll see you soon.
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Apr. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:14 pm The light & The glass
Current Music: The Click five-Just that girl
Hey everyone, I'm back for to type. I think I'm gonna try to go to the Fallout boy concert on may 8th, the problem is I wanted some of my friends to go but the show is 18+, which means I am the only one that can go out of the people that I wanted to go. This really sucks. Today seems like a day that i will just sit around. I still haven't gotten my 1500 word essay done. I'm gonna be in trouble come tommrow. well I'm out.







Pat



P.S. I'm so sexy, and you know it!!!!!!!

Yesturday was so freakin awsome, Happy B-day Steph! I would live yesturday over again and not come home so early.
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Apr. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:16 am An hour lost and nothing gained
Current Mood: gloomywow? is that me?
Current Music: 15 minutes late-buried
Well, looks like I'm back for more. I've been doing alot of thinking about where my life is headed latley. I can't pretend like things don't bother me, but i try. What's worse the girl you like not sure if she wants to date you and keeps saying "I think it's a yes" ? Well that's all folks.



Megan and Steph are soooo cool!!!! That was a great party!
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Apr. 2nd, 2005 @ 01:11 am A day in the life of a no one
Hey , this is my first LJ in a while just cause there has been nothing to type lately. It sux really. My Spring break was pretty cool. this time I think I'm gonna put lyrics in here:


I sat outside my front window...this story's going somewhere:
"He's well hung," and I am hanging up.
Well there's a song on the radio that says:
"Let's get this party started."
So let's get this party started.

What you do on your own time's just fine.
My imagination's much worse, I just never want to know.
And what meant the world had folded like legs
and fingers holding onto what escapes me;
what he has: a better kiss that never lasts.

You said, between your smiles and regrets: "Don't say it's over."
Dead and gone.

The calm before the storm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight.
A reception less than warm set it off. The sun burnt out tonight.

This is me standing in the arch of the door hating
that look that's on your face that says
there's another fool like me.
There's one born every minute.

What you do on your own time's just fine.
My imagination's much worse, I just never want to know.
What meant the world imploded, inflated then demoted all my oxygen
to product gas and suffocated my last chance.


Well that's all for now.

Megan is so cool!!!!!!!!
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Mar. 23rd, 2005 @ 09:30 pm Is this how it ends?
Current Music: Fallout Boy-Saturday
Well, today was pretty great, I was in a good mood I even didn't mind sitting alone at lunch,cause everyone else was occupied, I didn't mind much though.My day would have to be the best School day in a while. Then i came home and everyone was in a bad mood and Misery loves company, so i was brought down with them. i don't know why they were all in such a bad mood, it's like it's just a negetive energy around my house. it was creepy. Be sides all that, everything's great! and I don't want Spring break to come cause that means 1 week of having to put up with my Family.
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Mar. 20th, 2005 @ 10:36 am Do you see what i see?
Current Music: John Mayer ~ Comfortable
Hey there everyone, How the F*** are ya? I'm doing prett well, I guess. My home life is getting better or so it seems. Mabey I'm just getting slowly used to it. It doesn't mean i accept it but i know it's there and I'm doing my best to ignore it, Which in the end i think it will work out fine, or at least i hope so. Also, I went and saw the musical, Ryan was AWSOME! The whole thing was really good. Last night my friend Zach stayed over and we were chilling in my Dinning room and we looked into the kitchen and my dad was asleep in a chair, it was good fun. We laughed at him, then when he woke up he ate a Hobo snack, Beans right out of the can. I dunno I'm kinda worried I don't know why but something is bugging me. Everyone else seems to be having a good month this month except me. I mean it's not all that bad but nothings changed, I need change in my life. And over this past month I've Kinda pushed myself away from everyone. I just don't know how to deal with everything going on. well this is all for now.
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Mar. 13th, 2005 @ 11:52 am JACK IN, POWER UP!!!!!!
Current Music: Motion city soundtrack-Capital H
Well, It's another day, I'm gonna sit around,on my computer and look for at least a little inkiling of life online, nobodys on right now, but they'll come bac, They allways come back. Well that's all for now!



Patric Logging out
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Mar. 12th, 2005 @ 09:54 pm Don't Cry you pansy.
Current Mood: accomplished........
Current Music: Dashboard Confessional~ Tonight I"ll take what i can get
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the past few weeks, I've been kinda distant. It's not you it's me. I"m not Breaking up with you i just think I need to appologize cause I know My friends Care about me. And If I've left Ignored you then I am sorry, i have realized my mistakes and Thatnx to my friends I was able to see what i did. Well that's My LJ for tonight.
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Mar. 9th, 2005 @ 10:11 pm You have seen me.....
Current Mood: accomplishedI did it!
Current Music: Decendents~ 'merican
Hey everyone, How are you all? oh really? I'm sorry? anyway I'm doing pretty well, and I"m back out and ready to take on anything you can throw at me (unless it's rocks) cause I just fel as if i needed time to close a chapter in my life, and i finally took the book Closed it and put it away. I doubt it will stay put away for very long, but at least it's gone for now.if you've been paying attention you have seen that I wasn't doing so well, but i belive that i have made so Closure with myself. I don't know what the next step in my life is, but when it comes I"m gonna keep on going, Cause either way I"ve got my friends right by me. I wanna ask you all to join the comunity The_comuninja i mean it's all for fun, come on what have you got to lose? Dignity, No you lost that already. Friends, Well they're all in the comunity. Virginity, Possibly but let's not get into that now. Just tell me why you are Comuninja material.

On a werid note I had a crazy dream last night, I was in the middle of a gun fight in the center of a reasturaunt, some one yelled "Come out with your hands raised high" So i ran and cut myself on my hand, I woke up my hand in pain looked down and thus THERE WAS A SCRATCH ON MY HAND!!!!! I will probably figure out that i cut it on the window sill by my bed. Oh well I"m OUt of here.



L8r master b8r,
patric

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Feb. 27th, 2005 @ 09:21 pm How am i supposed to feel?
Current Music: The Used ~ Buried myself Alive
Well I feel like crap again today. I miss eveything even more then i did yesturday. It's kinda hard to get over it. I mean i think i did the right thing but sometimes i feel like i was an ass about it. I just hope i can get her out of my head, It's been kinda hard for me to do. I mean i find my self just thinking about her, It's kinda bad i know. I just can't stop. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel, I mean i feel as if it's wrong for me to feel like this. I've been under alot of stress lately ,ad even a little push has set me off. I just don't wann flip out on any of my friends, I allready have flipped out on one person, And i regret it. Judgeing by how i look you wouldn't know this but I can be very brutal when I'm Angry. I Have everything spinning out of control at once and it's hard to control. so How am i supposed to feel? How Am i supposed to Act? Who am I supposed to be?
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Feb. 26th, 2005 @ 07:38 pm Sorry 2005
Current Mood: boredBORING!!!
Current Music: Mr. Brightside~The killers
WEll it's officail, I'M Freakin bored. there is nothing to do. I would play Dragonball Z Budokai 2 but I beat it. I'm just sitting here typing away. and if you wanna join a comunity, Look up "the_comuninja" Mabey you'll be accepted. There is a very painful prosess to becoming a member i mean first you gotta fill out a form then you gotta be accepted. I mean If you aren't worthy, I'm gonna tell you. I ain't never scared. And I've been thinnking alot about Some stuff.

I mean i feel kind of bad for breaking up with Jackie, But I think I did the right thing even if it did hurt me pretty bad. I don't know how she feels about it, I don't really think I wanna know how she feels about me. I mean she probably is reallt ticked off at me. I wouldn't doubt it. I just didn't want her to end up unhappy. That would be one of the last things I would wanna do.

I also wanna aplogize again if i have been a jerkhole to any of you (Except Alex) cause I've just been REALLY stressed out. so it's not like i mean to be mean (Except to Alex) So there for I am sorry.L8r I'm out!


All that I've got left,

Patric
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Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 07:38 pm All the ladies in the house say....YOU DUMBASS!!
I feel like a complete Jerk to everyone right now. If i am to you I apologize. I'm a little Razzled. And I feel like I'm back to my old self again. I like being able to be myself and Not have to worry about embarassing people. It's a good feeling. Well that's all for now.

Don't give in to the Oricalcose.

Patric
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Feb. 12th, 2005 @ 06:04 pm Summoning the powers of the Red eyes black dragon
Today i attended the Yugioh torney at the local card shop. I couldn't get past the 1st round. I need to make some changes to my dueling deck. and now to respond to the thing i wrote on my last LJ I"M NOT A BAD PERSON. I will not give into the Oricalcose. L8r
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Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 08:58 pm Open your eyes to what's real
I feel like I'm a bad person
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 07:16 pm Until we meet again.
Current Mood: annoyedGAH!
Current Music: Thu used~ All that I've got.
Isn't life funny.How someone can start an argument trying to get someone mad and it get's turned in their face. Then they feel like they're the bigger person. I sick of petty little arguments. Its arguments like this that made me happy to move away. I'm Done with this argument. and I'm done Arguing. That's right I'm Throwing in the towel. I don't want this to be like Lowell. I don't wanna leave and never look back here cause This is the best place I've ever lived. So thus I am throwing in the towell that's right I'm done.
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Jan. 30th, 2005 @ 08:25 pm You lose the duel you lose your soul!
Current Mood: coldShaking with secrets
Current Music: The used~ All that I've got
Hey, everyone! Well, I'm going to Adress somethings B4 i get on with this.
Nick: I don't Care about the fact that you have two Redeye darkness dragons. I'll get it eventually. And I'm not following the deck list you made me.
Ok now on with this.

LIfe has been REally stressful lately and first off i wanna apologize to Brian and Zach. I was kinda a jerk when you guy spent the night. I mean there is alot of stuff running through my head lately.You could kinda say my EMO has been in overdrive. and I think I'm My mind is trying to keep up with all of you guys that's my greatest downfall. I get the feeling that I'm gonna be left behind by you guys. I mean I'm not the sharpest knife in the drawer let's face it. Everyone out there is gonna move on to bigger and better things, and I'm gonna be left in the Dreams i have. and in spite of all this I fiqured that I was doomed from the begining. I know this is gonna sound a little cheesy but i think life is like a Yu-gi-oh! duel, No matter what cards you are delt, Failure is leaning in my favor. Every one has a few of there cards face down and they will be reveiled in time, it could help you but it could be your demise.And sometimes you can comeback from your near defeat but then you are right back where you started. But i don't know how eveythings gonna play out. I feel like I'm allways in a battle of wits with myself. No one will come out alive. and around me everyone will suffer. but when all the cards are delt you are never the victor. No matter what your soul your whole being.....it's like they have fallen away. The only things that have helped me through all of this are my Friends. When I get the feeling that nothing can go right. I am reassured that things will work. well that's all. L8R



Patrick.
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Jan. 24th, 2005 @ 09:55 pm My Chemical Romance
Hey everyone wassup? I'm so Happy lately, even though i feel like i don't deserve it. It's kinda werid how good i feel. well later
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